Dear Eliya,To be honest I don't know where to start. Sometimes pressure can get into the way of somebody's rationality.
You are one of my closest friends if not my closest. I would never want to lose somebody like you. I told myself before I came to today's party that I would make sure not to choose any sides, I would sit alone and talk to everyone normally. I was already upset and angry at myself how I put myself into a pickle with two girls. I was already upset with myself on how I was going down a relationship spiral. I just got back from a relationship and was putting myself down the path I swore not to go down again. You were already obviously angry at me and I knew I had to fix that. I planned on fixing that tonight. Unfortunately, my plan didn't work. One second and Daria is on top of me and there was nothing I could do. I saw your face, the way you were acting, and how you left early. I knew I seriously messed up. I immediately for the rest of the night made sure to sit by myself and not let peer pressure take the best of me.I spoke with Daria tonight telling her how I felt. I told her how I thought that we were taking it too fast and how what was happening was making me extremely uncomfortable. Although I'm sure it confused her, I made sure to do it for the benefit of all of us.The honest truth is that I care so much about you and I can't let this happen. I can't hurt my best friend. As I sit down crying writing this it really sinks down to me. I will make sure to never let this happen again. And, I will make sure this will teach me a lesson for the future.Eliya, I am so sorry. I am sorry for leading you on. Making you feel like shit. Putting you in this position. If I were you, I would've slit a razor down every inch of my arm until there would be no place else to slash. (pls don't do that, seriously don't). I just want my best friend back. Please forgive me.Aaron ❤️